help in whatever way you can..please.

[llamagangster]

soo..
i have this friend.
she's pretty cool.
we are best friends.
i'm gay.
she's bi.
she's got a crush on a guy, this girl i happened to introduce her too and blah.
we are pretty cuddly.
hold hands, lock arms, hug...blah blah.
about a week ago i started to like it.. you know like i wanna date her.
but i haven't really told anyone because i know it would mess things up with us and her little crushes and stuff.
but, friday morning this girl asked me if she (my friend) and i were going out..
i said no.
she's like well, are you gay. i said yes.
she said that's cool i'm half and half.
then she asked me what about your friend. i said she's half and half too.
then she asked if i liked my friend and i said kinda.
she said aww or something.
then she asked me if i was doing her..lol..i said no. sadly.

blah blah.
so i told my friend that.
hoping she would think about it... i left out the part where she asked me if i liked her.
my friend pretty much just said you remind me of the song you're the only one and girl at the rock show. lol.
then i said you remind me of everything girl.

then friday my friend stayed the night...and my dad had to go to walmart and we were holdin' hands there and stuff. and in the car my arm was around her and what not. but i felt more of a connection.
then we get home and decided to go on a walk and once again my arm over her. holdin' hands and shit.

and then when we went to bed she got right up next to me so i'm like wtf i'll just put my arm around her and we fell asleep...
so it was her wanting to cuddle and me too.

but i guess my question is...should i tell her i like her and see what she says with the risk of maybe ruining our friendship or should i just keep it to myself and get all sad all the time?

idk.
fuck.

[Mushanga]

TELL HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lostioz]

hell yeah go for it !

[geo]

tell her

[photo-nut]

go for it !

[judeuk]

yeah tell her,
just think what It could lead to :-D

[Humanafterall]

If I were you, I would tell her too. :) Good luck.

Kate

[midwesta]

Go for it pimpin' what part of IL you represent?

[hello164]

Oh I think you should tell her! It sounds like she likes you and if you are really close then it shouldn't ruin the friendship even if she doesnt want more at the moment. I hope everything works out for you! :-D

[petal]

Follow what your heart is telling you to do!!!

[alidarose]

do what your first instincts tell you to do and follow your heart. good luck ;)

[MaineluvsEllenandPortia]

TELL HER!! I tried that once...and it almost detroyed me. I tried to tell her four times...and every time and the last time where i really tried to tell her all she could say was aum maybe something is going on here that i dont know about?? Maybe we should talk?? We never did and now i hate her...and i fondly call her Satan....

take our advice...TELL HER...good luck...my thoughts are with you..xoxo

[llamagangster]

why thank you all..
though i did know that everyone was gunna say to tell her..i thought i'd ask.

damn.
i'm scared now.

[ellenfannn]

okay im so confused..
are you a guy or a girl?
(im sorry to sound so rude)

[llamagangster]

no it's fine.
trust me babe.
i'm used to it by now!

i'm a girl.

[ellenfannn]

gosh you seem so freaking nice and layed back. seriously :)
but anyways that sounds so cute about you and your friend.. i think she likes you a lot. and even if you tell her and she just wants to still be friends, she'll know that you like her and maybe she'll even be more cuddly and stuff then.

[Elise]

Good luck :D

[smithy1219]

Tell her becuase she obviously reeally likes you and think of what you could get out of it!!! :-D good luck!

[LisaJr]

So...did you tell her yet? Hope it goes well. Keep us posted. Good luck!

[ohyeaah]

Not sure exactly what to say, but...

When I was growing up, and my friends would spend the night with each other, we always slept in the same bed. NOT ONCE did any of us want to "cuddle". I think she must like you.



good luck
michelle

[llamagangster]

So sorry it's taken me awhile to reply kids.
Actualy, I'm probably the kid.

So,
anywayz,
I guess I told her.
Theres been a few people who ask me about my friend and I. So I decided to forward a message I had with someone talking about my friend. She said "ha that's so funny" Somethin' like that. So I said, "yeah it is, but, are we something? will we ever become something? do you want to be something?"... she said she doesn't know. she doesn't want to screw me over and that she's addicted to this guy. grr. i told her i didn't want to screw her over either and that i didn't want to mess anything up between us or between anybody else that we liked. and i said that i didn't want things to be awkward between us too... she said, that she thought it wouldnt mess anything up between us butt, she likes this guy a lot... i got really really emo and just said sorry, i shouldn't have said anything in the first place then she felt bad for me so then i felt bad for making her feel bad then she was mad then i was mad for making her mad.

It's not that I don't like you, it's just that I'm kinda involved with ***** right now.

just want i wanted to hear.
and that was that.

i cried.
layed in bed for awhile.
said, i feel like a total jerk right now. i said i'd give her all the time in the world to get over this jerk ass that she is "involved" with right now..
then i said ..i just want to be with you..
then i left.


we hung out this week.
she didn't say a thing about it.
neither did i.
i tried.
but i wimped out.

and so now.
i'm just waiting...
**deep breath**

but this guy she is with is using her.
big time.
and she knows it.
but she's "addicted" to him.

and now i don't really trust her when she says "it's not that i don't like you.."
because i was just in something where i was lied too a lot...and i believed it and it caused me to lose trust in everything and everyone...

so idk.
**another deep breath**


oh and i'm from the central part of illinois midwesta..