hsswoosh
05-18-2007, 09:38 PM
I had been with my girlfriend for almost two years when four days before she cheated on me she proposed to me. My mother had been going through a rough divorce so, I decided to visit her for a few days. Without hearing from my fiance, I finally got a call four days after after my fiance had dropped me off at my mothers. The call was not for the good... the first words out of her mouth were, "I think we need to have a break." This is FOUR days after she proposed to me... and asked me to spend forever with her... in complete awe, shock... I had no idea what to do... After an emotional conversation my fiance left it at that.. a break, with no explanation.. just a break... and turned off her phone until the following Monday when she was supposed to pick me up to go back to our house. She said that she would be there that night, but was a no show..so my mother dropped me off early the next morning... to a house with no fiance... no phone call.. no anything for days after i was at her house.
You see.. a little background my fiance had wrecked my car so I was relying on her for transportation... we have been a financial bind because of the accident put her out of work and I'm a med student so not currently getting an income. So, we were using my credit cards and relying on her dissability checks to support our bills. Well, she had left me with no money, none of my daily medications that I take, no transportation, just tears and no explanation.
Anyways.. the only way I could get in touch with anyone was through the guy that she had slept with and only through a TEXT message... she has decided that she doesn't want to be an adult about this and communicate me or explain anything... finally the thursday after i was there... she decided to come back home and stay the night.. she fed me lies and led me to believe that she still was in love with me and wanted to be with me and etc... and well, since i'm so in love with her.. and want to spend my life with her i believed it... only to wake up the next morning with her to tell me that she needs some time to think.. so she disappears with our dog for four hours.. and comes back in a different car... (not hers) and a backpack.. and starts packing a bag of clothes... i'm kind of like what is this??? she says oh i'm going out tonight i'll be back tomorrow to take you back to your apartment (which is 4 hours away). so here i am.. in her house.. in her room, in her bed... having to look at the past two years of our lives.. our memories.. and crying my eyes out.. knowing that shes sleeping with some guy every night... knowing that i'm here dying inside... and shes not caring.
So... i haven't seen her since.. she changed her phone number.. though i did find it out.. i still cant get in touch with her... she sent me one email, but that is it... i'm here.. still dying.. and all i can do is sit here and wait.. and write blogs.. and literally grieve in my emotions. in our relationship i ditched all of my friends.. and family so i do not have them to rely on to come pick me up or anything... all i have is her roommates... who my ex fiance will also not communicate with... (which is my fault in her eyes... because i "showed up at our house" out of no where when i was supposed to.. to discuss this situation.. and get home back to my life).
I haven't eaten in over 2 weeks.. i can't... i'm literally dying inside... and i don't know what to do... why would she do this to me?? why would she not care to talk to me.. she knows what i'm going through.. she reads my blogs... she calls me crazy.. every word in the book bc i'm hurt... but who wouldnt be?? she cheated on me with a MAN... when she wanted to be with me for her whole life 4 days before... and two years before that...
i dont know what to do.. and am really reaching out for some help... someone.. please??
You see.. a little background my fiance had wrecked my car so I was relying on her for transportation... we have been a financial bind because of the accident put her out of work and I'm a med student so not currently getting an income. So, we were using my credit cards and relying on her dissability checks to support our bills. Well, she had left me with no money, none of my daily medications that I take, no transportation, just tears and no explanation.
Anyways.. the only way I could get in touch with anyone was through the guy that she had slept with and only through a TEXT message... she has decided that she doesn't want to be an adult about this and communicate me or explain anything... finally the thursday after i was there... she decided to come back home and stay the night.. she fed me lies and led me to believe that she still was in love with me and wanted to be with me and etc... and well, since i'm so in love with her.. and want to spend my life with her i believed it... only to wake up the next morning with her to tell me that she needs some time to think.. so she disappears with our dog for four hours.. and comes back in a different car... (not hers) and a backpack.. and starts packing a bag of clothes... i'm kind of like what is this??? she says oh i'm going out tonight i'll be back tomorrow to take you back to your apartment (which is 4 hours away). so here i am.. in her house.. in her room, in her bed... having to look at the past two years of our lives.. our memories.. and crying my eyes out.. knowing that shes sleeping with some guy every night... knowing that i'm here dying inside... and shes not caring.
So... i haven't seen her since.. she changed her phone number.. though i did find it out.. i still cant get in touch with her... she sent me one email, but that is it... i'm here.. still dying.. and all i can do is sit here and wait.. and write blogs.. and literally grieve in my emotions. in our relationship i ditched all of my friends.. and family so i do not have them to rely on to come pick me up or anything... all i have is her roommates... who my ex fiance will also not communicate with... (which is my fault in her eyes... because i "showed up at our house" out of no where when i was supposed to.. to discuss this situation.. and get home back to my life).
I haven't eaten in over 2 weeks.. i can't... i'm literally dying inside... and i don't know what to do... why would she do this to me?? why would she not care to talk to me.. she knows what i'm going through.. she reads my blogs... she calls me crazy.. every word in the book bc i'm hurt... but who wouldnt be?? she cheated on me with a MAN... when she wanted to be with me for her whole life 4 days before... and two years before that...
i dont know what to do.. and am really reaching out for some help... someone.. please??