Really need to vent...

[pip3ren]

ok so i did a really stupid thing last nite, and i have nobody to talk to about it except u guys o here so i hope you dont mind!!! heres wot happened, actually before that il give you a bit of backround on me.

i am completely confused, sexually i mean, i think im leanining towards being gay!!! like i actually have a choice:D:D but yeh i kinda like sum girls but also some guys, and honestly i am not that bothered about it, it didnt proper freak me out - but it would freak out my folks and my friends or so i thourght :p!!!

so i was out last nite, with my oldest friend, just for dinner - which turned into us both gettin completely drunk - like seriously i couldn remeber gettin home, and i actually think im still drunk typping this so i apolagise
for spelling and grammer:), so we wer drinking and talking and we wer on the subject of boys and who i liked, an we wer talking about a friend of ours who i gay and it just kind of came out "i think i mite like girls", and the rest of the i mite be gay speech!!

problem is not so much as i mite of accidently came out to my best friend last nite, but the fact that i cannot remeber wot the hell i said or she said or if i told anybody else !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and rite now i am freakin out, i dont know what to do, part of me wants to call her and ask, but them i thikin if i cant remember than mayb she cant and i should just leave it, i am so not ready to be anywere near out yet, i need to be more sure of myself first,
but them again who the fu*k would forget the friend posssibly comin out to them!!! i do remeber her saying things like "i dont care who you sleep with, and i stil love you blah blah blah" but i dnt know if she actualy said it or whether i dreamt it lol

and on top of that i just looked at my phone, and i have a msg and a missed call of my ex - (whos a guy), and i dont remember gettin in touch wit him - so for all i know i mit have said it to him to!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh wait tx msg of the friend i ws with last nite - this mite clear everything up - "hello alke you ok" thats it all she said, so no doesnt help much !!!

sorry for ranting so much, hey i mit even regret this wen im sober:D:D, but right now i could really do with sum help, and you guys are great with stuff so
HELP:p:p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanx
charlie xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Ana Matronic]

This is why I don't drink.

Lol, I don't really know what to say on this, but it seems like, the real you showed through when you were drunk. You blatently wanted to tell someone you're Bi (I'm assuming you're Bi) so when you were drunk it was obviously easier to say.
If you can hardly remember it, I reckon your best mate will hardly remember it. But, perhaps you could consider telling them about your sexuality properly anyway? It may feel better to get it out in the open. If their your best friend, they should accept you no matter what, and keep it secret for you for as long as you want it to be.

[drummonger]

I have recently had a similar experiecne. Chances are you think you said more than you actually did. I wouldn't worry, as there is nothing you can do about it now. Just sit back, hope for the best, and try not to get that drunk again.
If anyone has a problem with anything you said, just tell them that you were drunk, and don't remember "rambling". Everything will be alright.
:kaffeetrinker_2:

[smithy1219]

Well yeah there’s a reason I don’t get drunk. Im to scared about what I would say and if I did let my sexuality slip around people that did not know that would not be too good. As you said you were both drunk and she may not even remember or even if she does she may just think, oh well she was drunk and did not know what she was talking about.
But if you remember your friend saying that she did not mind it might be worth telling her for support and it will give you some one to talk to. I felt a huge, huge amount of relief when I first told my best mate and we eventually ended up going out and have a relationship for a year before we split up a while ago so you never know where these things will take you as I didn’t even know she was gay. Things happen so strangely sometimes.

[pip3ren]

thank you for your responses, i had kinda been wresling with myself whether or not to speak to her about this in a proper way before this happened so i wasnt completely surprised that i mentioned it, becaause weve been drunk together many times and its never come up before, i think part of me wanted to talk about it!! it just sucks that im really fuzzy on the details of what was actually said.

but knowing the way our friendship works, it wont be mentioned again unless i bring it up and im thinkin the longer i leave it the harder it mite be but then again she may remember much either so i duno what im goin to do!!!

but again thanx for takin the time to read and respond to my stupid behaviour

xxxx

[smithy1219]

No problem and good luck with what ever you decide to do.:)

[rayoflight76]

I have done the same thing, a few times actually. They say when you are drunk the truth comes out. I have told the same friend a few different times that I thought I was gay, all of them nights i had drank to much. Her responce was, "as long as you dont hit on me." My reply, "Dont worry, your not my type." I think the best thing to do is let things come to you naturally. You obviously have the thought in your head that you might be, or are gay. (Just like me right now) I feel like I need to act on it, but just do not know where to go, what to do or who to do. :wacko:

[Tolaoi]

yeah thats what it looks like we drink ...but u know girl..dont be nervous ...if ur friend really like U She/He will understand this ...its better that way that u said to her ...U will just be sure if she`s a really friend :)

[PuppyLover]

Yes, alcohol can be an eye opener. I remember a time in college where my girlfriend and I were drinking and watching Steel Magnolias and listening to old Barry Manilow CDs. Both of us were crying my babies at the end of the movie, and we cuddled in eachother's arms for comfort. The next thing you know we're sprawled out on the couch going at it like two kittens lapping up a puddle of warm fresh milk. It was my first lesbian experience and I wasn't ready to come out at the time, but the alcohol did me in. We're still friends to this day, so I'm sure you'll be fine.