so low this christmas

[porschemad]

hi all, im from uk. just wondered if anyone has some advice for me. all started a yr ago when the love of my life left me. then i meet someone else six months ago and that has gone horribly wrong too. i feel so alone and empty and now my job id under threat i have been suspended from work and have no one to talk to. i just dont know when its all gonna end.

[maddog]

Buggah, your not having a good year. Hopefully 08 will bring a welcome change. Do you get to watch TEDS? Maybe Ellen can inspire you and help you laugh. Do you have anyone to spend Christmas day with? If not maybe you could volunter or visit a place for others who are less fortunate or alone. If you were in oz you could come over my place christmas day. :xmas_19:;)

[porschemad]

i do watch TEDS and i think she's great. spending christmas with my parents but they dont know my troubles as they worry too much. Hopefully 08 will be better year who knows. All i want for christmas this year is Happyness.
Hope you all get what you wish for this year :)

[AnastasiaBeavrhausen]

Hi, I understand what you are going through... although this is with my mother. She hates me and was so mad I went to L.A. to see Ellen with my friends here from the forum. I made my Christmas Letter all about the trip and she refuses to read it. Then she had a heart attack two weeks ago and I have been taking care of her and she is getting really moody with me and hung up on me on the phone yesterday because she was mad I was at a friends house calling her. Shes so immature and I am dreading Christmas that I don't even want to go there now. I can't win with her... and shes the type that never wants to hear about what I have to say about my life, its always about her... so I have to take the high road and just accept it even though I would rather gouge my eyes out with a spoon spending time with her. It sounds cruel I know, but its so confusing... just remember what the reason for the season is and hang in there hon... we all support you here and you can talk whenever you want... :xmas_1:

[jjjoan]

hey porschemad! u will have a good year 2008.:xmas_7: Happy holidays! greeting from ellen!!!!!!
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[Julia1912]

Have a good Christmas and all my best for you for 2008!!!

[i_love_ellen]

Hi, I understand what you are going through... although this is with my mother. She hates me and was so mad I went to L.A. to see Ellen with my friends here from the forum. I made my Christmas Letter all about the trip and she refuses to read it. Then she had a heart attack two weeks ago and I have been taking care of her and she is getting really moody with me and hung up on me on the phone yesterday because she was mad I was at a friends house calling her. Shes so immature and I am dreading Christmas that I don't even want to go there now. I can't win with her... and shes the type that never wants to hear about what I have to say about my life, its always about her... so I have to take the high road and just accept it even though I would rather gouge my eyes out with a spoon spending time with her. It sounds cruel I know, but its so confusing... just remember what the reason for the season is and hang in there hon... we all support you here and you can talk whenever you want... :xmas_1:
Hey susan i hope you don't mind me asking but why does your mum hate that you went to an ellen taping? does she not like ellen or is it the whole concept of meeting up with people over the internet and being so crazy over a 'celebrity'? Sorry i just find it odd that she would get mad at that and hang up on you after you took care of her at the hospital.

porschemad im sorry to hear you had such a crappy year i hope the new year will bring you more luck. If you need to talk we're all here for ya ;)

[AnastasiaBeavrhausen]

Well, she is a very jealous person and we hadn't talk for 7 years when I had my accident last year and BOOM there she was. Very awkward. Before I left for Ellen, I was in the hospital because of bronchitis and I checked myself out so I could go to Ellen. She called me selfish for going, and thats her secret code for being jealous. Shes weird that way and I hadn't lived with her since I was 9. So shes always been that way... she'll be involved then won't talk to me for years, then its back on and off... Now she had this heart attack and its my turn to take care of her. But shes acting weird, everything is about her. Like I'll start talking about something and she'll cut me off. She never asks me about my life or how I am doing... she's just wacko. Oh well, I should have no expectations anyway, so I don't know why I'm so worked up about this. Sorry to rant. Just needed to!:xmas_10::xmas_9:

[i_love_ellen]

Well, she is a very jealous person and we hadn't talk for 7 years when I had my accident last year and BOOM there she was. Very awkward. Before I left for Ellen, I was in the hospital because of bronchitis and I checked myself out so I could go to Ellen. She called me selfish for going, and thats her secret code for being jealous. Shes weird that way and I hadn't lived with her since I was 9. So shes always been that way... she'll be involved then won't talk to me for years, then its back on and off... Now she had this heart attack and its my turn to take care of her. But shes acting weird, everything is about her. Like I'll start talking about something and she'll cut me off. She never asks me about my life or how I am doing... she's just wacko. Oh well, I should have no expectations anyway, so I don't know why I'm so worked up about this. Sorry to rant. Just needed to!:xmas_10::xmas_9:
ouch..not being around your mum since nine! sorry to hear that. No need to apologize, pfft PM me whenever you need to,you can swear and curse at me if you want,just don't bottle it up! I can't really say anything since i don't know your mum personally but i hope you have a merry christmas!

Remember you can PM me anytime if you wanna get anything out..i'm hear to listen ;)

[nowvoyager]

Hey porschemad,
Life may seem crap at every turn at the moment but hang in there, have hope and it will become fun again. We have to live through the lows of life so we can fully appreciate the highs.

Your love life hasn't been going too well? Then take some time to be on your own for a bit and work on yourself. Examine your past relationships and acknowledge some of the areas where perhaps you could have acted better or they could have. And take those lessons to heart for the benefit of future relationships. You said the love of your life left you, perhaps it wasn't the love of your life but someone who was preparing you for when you do meet the special one.

Are you happy in your current job? If there's difficulties maybe it's time to reexamine what you really want to do and set up a path to get there. There's nothing worse than being in a job that you don't like. We spend so much of our lives at work, it's important that you enjoy it.

Hang in there Porschemad, life can be good but you have to help it along. I was heartbroken and not fulfilled in my career 5 years ago, so I changed it and now I am very happy with my life.
Take care and work on making 2008 a good one!